Cry in my heart...

As I sit in my hometown Starbucks I think about the next few weeks. It is only a few weeks before orientation at Black Forest Academy starts. I currently sit around 40% for support. In order for me to have a ticket to Germany I will need to be at 80%, at least. While the next few weeks will be spent in giving presentations and meeting with people - the next few weeks will be spent waiting, waiting on the Lord. I know that is not on my own that I will be able to go. It is not in my own strengths, abilities or in the people I know. It is ONLY by God.

While I know my deadline is August 1 to be in Germany, I am also learning that sometimes my timing isn't God's timing. This is hard.
 
 
The "title" of my post is from a Starfield song - "Cry in my heart"



Lyrics:
There's a cry in my heart
For Your glory to fall
For Your presence to fill up my senses
There's a yearning again
A thirst for discipline
A hunger for things that are deeper


Could You take me beyond?
Could You carry me through?
If I open my heart?
Could I go there with You?
(For I've been here before
But I know there's still more
Oh, Lord, I need to know You)

For what do I have
If I don't have You, Jesus?
What in this life
Could mean any more?
You are my rock
You are my glory
You are the lifter
Of my head
Lifter of this head


I feel like this is my "life song" right now. There is this yearning and hunger in my life for something more. I want God to use me. I just need to constantly remind myself to not get caught up in my "to do list" but in glorifying God through this whole process.